Holding each grief and gratitude

“I may very well be sitting on the sidelines, in blissful ignorance of the brokenness that surrounds me, having fun with the whole-ness of a candy and sheltered life. Lacking out on the fantastic thing about breaking off items of my coronary heart and my life to make one other complete.” – Jamie from @fosterthefamilyblog

I take a look at this image. I consider the final 9 months of loving this little man. I consider the curler coaster of feelings we’ve skilled. I consider the brutal and the gorgeous. I consider how our complete household has modified due to loving this little man. I consider how we be gotten to see God present up in profound and highly effective methods on our behalf. And my coronary heart swells with gratitude.

We didn’t join foster care as a result of we’re robust or courageous, however as a result of we had been known as. As a result of as soon as we knew the necessity, we couldn’t keep in our protected bubble of consolation, we needed to leap out and say sure — even when it terrified us.

And I mirror on this previous yr and I can say with 100% confidence: God has been so trustworthy.

Within the many moments when it felt overwhelming and exhausting, He was trustworthy.

Within the occasions once we felt lonely and scared, He was trustworthy.

By means of the various unknowns, He was trustworthy.

I don’t know what God is looking you to. I don’t know what you’re strolling via. I don’t know what scary factor you may be dealing with that you understand you’re alleged to say “sure” to.

However this I do know: God is trustworthy. He has been, He’s, and He will probably be trustworthy. Relaxation in that, lean on that, and take the subsequent step.

On this week’s episode of The Crystal Paine Present, Jesse and I sit down and discuss what this final week has been like for us. We open up candidly about how the grief of saying goode to Champ has profoundly impacted us. We share what has been serving to us, how we’re processing this loss, what has been serving to us, and the way we’re holding each grief and gratitude on the identical time.

And since we didn’t need the entire episode to be heavy, we additionally discuss our street journey to Kansas, chocolate collagen, a e book I’m studying to Kierstyn, a challenge Jesse lately completed, and a sweatshirt I’m loving.

In This Episode: 

[00:46] This week has undoubtedly been heavy and we’ll discuss that, however first…

[03:33] We acquired to go to Kansas lately. Hear concerning the journey.

[08:43] We had an surprising occasion occur on the street on the way in which dwelling from Kansas.

[13:07] Chocolate collagen is saving Jesse’s life.

[14:33] Our new deck furnishings has been saving my life.

[17:08] I’m studying Stuart Little to Kierstyn.

[17:40] So, let’s discuss grief and gratitude. We’re sharing the story behind Champ going dwelling.

[20:40] Why I’m so grateful wanting again over the past week.

[23:35] Tuesday night time and Wednesday morning had been very troublesome. I used to be hit with deep grief.

[26:14] Jesse was hit hardest the primary night time. Hear why.

[29:41] Why it’s essential to permit your self to really feel the grief.

[32:04] What has been most useful once I really feel the cloud of grief come over me.

[34:04] Studying to obtain from others as a substitute of at all times being the giver.

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